Blog / My 2019 | weddings, portraits and a bump in the road
Hello! It’s been a while, and of course, I’m certain that you’ve missed me! To be honest, the blogging always feels a little bit like I’m talking to myself, but when looking at all the little complicated information bits and bobs on here, I can see that some people do see it! I’ve never quite got to grips with the marketing, but I’m going to keep going as it seems to have worked Ok for me for this long! So, if you are here reading, welcome, and thank you.
I just wanted to do a small roundup of 2019, there’s much more to share, so I think I’ll do a few more and then I’ll get back to blogging each shoot from this year. I want my lovely clients pics out there, so I’m determined to share them with you. I’ve been luck enough to work with absolutely wonderful people this year. Some lovely Cambridge weddings and weddings in Bury St Edmunds. Outdoor wedding ceremonies in Norfolk at family homes, a glorious wedding at Lodge farm Barns in Essex and the Garden Barn in Suffolk. An 80th birthday mixed with a wedding and a fabulous African/Suffolk blended wedding both at Sturmer Hall, Suffolk. Family sessions at Wandlebury Country Park, Bury St Edmunds and Cambridge homes, walks in the park and holiday lodges. I’ve enjoyed really relaxing into my photography this year, shooting in a very fluid way. I love the results, and hope you will too!
There would have been more weddings to show you, but I had a bump in the road this year. In May, I was diagnosed with stage 2 cervical cancer. Results from a regular smear test came back abnormal, and at my first appointment to see what the problem was, I was was told it was very likely cancer. So began a rollercoaster 7 months. After the worst 3 weeks of my life, not knowing the extent or the prognosis, I found out that I’d need 5 weeks of intensive treatment. Radiotheraphy 5 days a week for 5 weeks, plus one chemotheraphy every week for 5 weeks. Starting mid July all the way through to the end of August. Topped off with a stay in hospital for brachytherapy (an epidural for 3 days and high dose internal radiotherapy….nice!) So my summer was shot basically. But, luckily enough I only had to cancel a few weddings, and the amazing photographers who helped me out I will forever be grateful to. I did a few weddings during my scary waiting weeks, plus a few just after treatment finished. The worry was immense, I didn’t want to let anyone down, but I got there. My friends and family were totally amazing. Helping with child care, coming with me to treatment, offering to be my assistants on jobs. What has be the worst year from me has also been one of the best. I saw how loved I am, and that is priceless and unimaginable. 3 weeks ago I went to get my MRI results, and thankfully, all looks clear. I’ll be checked up on for the next 5 years. Nothing is certain, but I’m positive. I’m not sure that it’s changed me hugely, but in the subtle ways it has. I won’t be the same. I am back to normal, but a new normal. And I’m eternally grateful to be here. I’m a lucky one.
So moving on, things have changed. I’m stepping back a bit from photography, taking a slight rest from it. But still shooting, and booking weddings and family sessions, but I want to find my true love for it again. I’m going to turn my camera on those around me. I’m spending time at my children’s school, enjoying being a part of something, doing different things. I’m broadening my horizons. But I’m still me. I’m going to enjoy the busy times, the quiet times, my loved ones, the sunshine, our garden and good red wine. I’m here. Thanks for being here too.